Zachary James Cook

Did I ever tell you how much your notes meant to me??  From the time you were very small, you left me notes--happy notes, thank you notes, I love you notes.  When you and your family moved to England in December 2004, you knew that I'd miss all of you so much.  When I got back from the airport, I found several notes from you to cheer me up.  But that was just the beginning!!  Every day for a long time I continued to find notes from you--in the silverware drawer, in the closet, in the car, everywhere!!  Nothing has ever meant more to me than those notes!!!   Thank you my dear Zach and I love you with all my heart, forever--Your Nana

my dearest zach~~i have 1001 memories of you and that's just the start!!  but one that i'm sooo thankful for was on oct. 14 when papa and i flew back to see ya'll.  it was a wed and you were in school when your mom & sisters picked us up in okc.  when we pulled in your driveway, i jumped out first saying i wanted the first hug from zach!!  i started to run through the garage & you were hiding there!!  (SO LIKE YOU)  you jumped out & grabbed me, i screamed & we hugged each other til we cried!!!  i want a repeat the minute i get to heaven--ok??  we spent a wonderful 10 days there with all of you & had fun eating at that mexican restaurant in okc before papa & i flew back here.  i waved at you as i was going through security, not knowing that would be my last time with you on this earth and that in 15 days you would be in heaven.  this is the hardest seperation that i've had in my life--it is such a wonderful priviledge being your nana.  i love you always and forever.   xo

 

i just wanted to let you know everytime i read one of your post on Zach's page my heartaches. i went to LC with zach and he truly was a great kid. My brother was alex's roomate and zachy was in my spanish class and i just wanted to let you know how great he was. he was the funniest, always laughing, joking and smiling. it was hard not to be full of joy when around him. i still cannot believe he is gone; you and your family are so strong the difficulty you must deal with waking up and missing him and being constantly reminded of him. you're lucky; all of you. ive decided to get a memorial tatto for all of those that i have lost.. three triangles each side of the triangle with represent the past, the present and the future. one for zach. one for the LC dorm consular mr. miles and one for a friend of mine who past in the sixth grade.. all three of their deaths have hit me so hard. impacted me so much. and made me realize life is short and each day you must pack as much life into one day as possible because you never know what will happen around the corner. well just know that your son has has such a big influence in my life and i love him for that he has changed me. he may not be here with us but he is in our hearts and on our minds and sitting side by side with loved ones above. he gives me hope. you give me hope. thank you. stay strong mamma cook.     

 was going through Zachs hotmail account this am & found this that I sent him in Nov of 2005....I'll share it with yall....even though not a day ever goes by I dont tell my children I Love u....still if I'd knew, I would of held Zach close & not let go...

IF I KNEW

If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be ! the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would ! give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more.

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say "I love you,"
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say "I love you,"
And certainly there's another chance
to say our "Anything I can do?"

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say "! I'm sorry,"
"Please forgive me," "Thank you," or "It's okay! "
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today.
Author:unknown

 

I LOVE YOU ZACHARY~ MOM xoxo

"I wish heaven had a phone so I could hear your voice again. I thought of you today, but that is nothing new. I thought about you yesterday, and days before that too. I think of you in silence, I often speak your name. All I have are memories and a picture in a frame. Your memory is a keepsake from which I'll never part.... God has you in his arms...I have you in my heart."
Love you Zach :)

Oh My Dear Zachy~

I came across this picture from last summer, when i was out weeding & you came out and asked to help me, I laughed & said of course with your cast on!  You gave me that awnry Zach grin as if to say," I knew that, i just wanted to sound like a gentleman!"  So ur Dad took our picture, I just want you back today to help me, actually just so I can love u!! You are so very Missed & are Loved so dearly by me & all your family! See u soon!! xoxxo 

Zach we had so many wonderful memories together! I remember at the 4th of July thing on base a few years ago and we rode the rides together! and we had so much fun and i'm thankful to have a few pictures from that to remind me how much of a good time we had together. Also, you saving me seats on the bus so we could sit together and talk, listen to music, laugh, and you would tickle me to the point of tears :) and we would hold hands! I really miss that! All those times we would play DS together and I would be laughing so hard because you were hilarious! You always had me laughing no matter how bad my day was going. I remember when you drew that heart on me in permanent marker. I know we had our ups and downs but once we moved away from each other we became even closer. you would text me, call me, and talk to me on msn alot. And we'd even webcam :) I keep wishing I'd get a text from you. I miss those so much. You meant so much to me zach. I even told you after you car accident that you needed to be really careful cause i worry and you said you'd be fine. You always knew how to look on the bright side of things. There are so many memories we have, I could not begin to write them all. I love you so very much zachary! I miss you!

Zach i thought about that one time when kelsey and josh were fighting and it was me and you in kelseys room laying on her bed together. You were being so funny and i couldnt stop laughing.  and then you had to leave and i kissed you and you said "aye aye okay" and left! that is one of my fav memories we had together!

Miss you so much zach.  I love you with all my heart!

Smglet

Dear Zachary~

I came across this photo today of you & Alex sleeping on the airport bench in Spain!   Wow~ the memories that came flooding back on that one....I had made our rental car reservations for Spain online~ we'll when we landed, there was no reservations, even though I had the reciept printed out...LOL  The language barrier didnt help!  I remember you & Alex trying to help us~ as u had both had over 2 years of Spanish~ we found out Spain's spanish isnt the same as Mexicos...imagine that..LOL!  So as we are trying to tell them we are a family of 6, as Dad counts heads, you boys gave up & crashed for a power nap on the bench, later we knew why, as the beaches in Spain are nude...yall just wanted to hit the beaches!  Boys~ Teens~ I wouldnt trade a moment I have had with you or Alex or any of the cookie crew!!  I Love yall dearly!!  xoxox ~ See you soon!  

Dear Zachy Poo~

i went to see you today and colored you a rainbow at school.  i like telling the family memories of you,,, i reminded mom tonight about when we went to florida for spring break last year, you wrote cookie crew in the sand on the beach with your toe, i think it was your pinky toe.  mom showed me where to write this and she will add the picture for me.  ill call you soon and you come home now,alex will be here soon to be with us all. how far away is heaven  i miss you and i love you zachy poo xo, macinzee

Zach,

 

My little brother, I miss you. I miss lunchtime at LCHS when I would get seconds and thirds for you and Shota. I miss bringing you to the rye and playing football with you. I miss hanging out in the hallways with Alex, you, Don, and Shota. You were such a sweetheart. On the weekend before graduation when your parents threw that party for Alex, we had such a blast in the hotel!! Bowling with beer bottles, a helmet, and a skateboard haha. And then me, you and Alex cuddling on the bed with me in the middle and the two of you kicking me the whole night. I miss that big smile you always had on your face and I wish you were still here. I love you Zach and I know you're in a better place, smiling down on all of us. My heart goes out to your family. I still talk to Alex everyday and I will be there for him because he misses you so much. When I heard the news my heart was broken. I love you and miss you so much Zach you really were like a brother to me. xoxoxxo <3<3<3

Zach*

I have sooo many memories the list goes on! Like when we use to go to sonic about everyday and you would order cherry slushies xtra cherry! or when you go in my car and i had my cheerleading stuff in my review mirror and you would say "did you get that off your homecoming mum?" and i would get so mad!  Or when you and kale took my car on left it somewhere and we walked together in the dark ally to get it! or when you played kayne west while i was taylor swift for homecoming week and after that you would always say "Hey taylor!" and once again i would get soo mad! or when you use to tickle me till i about cried! and all the times me and kels did chinese firedrills and you would say "omg yall are sooooo embarrsing!" or the time i drove your dads truck and ran a stop light and you statred yelling at me! or are tattos we put on! and all the great times we had playing halo and watching movies! and the nicknames you would call Smglet!

I had soo much fun we hung out Zach and i miss you so much! it feels like you took a peice of my heart with you! your always in my thoughts Zach and i cant wait to see you again in heaven! Thanks for every single memorie i cherish them and thank God everyday that i got to hang out and get to know you better in the last months. I miss you Zach and ill see you soon!

Love you

Smglet

Dear Zachary~

Wow~ a memory~ I have so many & I Thank God for each & every one of them!!!  I will start with how much I miss the sound of you & your friends here: laughing,asking for homemade cookies(& seeing how u loved them,especially the dough!), swimming, playing xbox...the list could goes on....but the Thursday prior to the last day I saw u: You, Savannah, Kale & Kelsey were all here having pillow fights & eating on your sisters Halloween candy, the sound was so beautiful as I thought how blessed I am to have such a housefull of fun, I remember all the notes of kindness, love left all over your room....like Youre great Zach, I Love you Zach!  & The painting of your bedroom walls 2 weks prior, is so pricelsess to have~You put stars by your name, i'd never seen you do that before & Savannah, Josh, Jacob, Kale, Lane or Kelsey didnt.  I didnt think about it till weeks later, maybe it was a sign, only God knows! I just know I want to see your smile again & here your car pull up & here you tickling your sisters....I miss you & need you home!!! I Love you so much Always!!~ Mom~ xoxoxo